Apparently I'm Freakin' awesome! The nurses have been stopping by because they heard that today I am going to be discharged. All of them have been coming in to say goodbye, and to wish me well. Many of them have woken me up but it's nice to see them. The sad part is that I barely remember some of them :(. All the seizure activity has messed up my memory. I hate this feeling. I remember a lot of their voices but their faces not so much.... :( This is one of my biggest worries about having the surgery. The surgery causes memory loss. And, of course, there's no guarantee that surgery will stop my seizures. It might...but it might not. If it does stop my seizures, my quality of life might improve...but will it really? Without my memory and without being able to remember generic words such as names of colors, or worse, without being able to remember people in my life...will that be a better life for me? Memory loss sucks so much and to be honest, it really hurts not to be able to remember all of the smiling faces coming by to wish me luck. :(
I have mixed feelings about leaving today. Yesterday I was feeling melancholy, and vulnerable but today I'm anxious and nervous. Anxious and nervous about what the future holds for me. I hope nothing but good things/results come from my stay here. Hard to believe that it's already been a week huh? I think I mentioned this in my last post, but I am SO GLAD I started this blog. I've been able to refer back to my old posts to help me remember bits and pieces of my life here the past week. Discharge is at 11am. Again, I'm anxious but I'm trying to stay positive. I'll be staying at my parents for a while in case any of you want to stop by ;). Thank you, every single last one of you for your support, prayers, well wishes, cheerful visits, phone calls, emails, facebook messages, everything. You guys all cheered me up when i was scared, nervous, anxious, lonely, sad, and even helped me to stay happy when i had my flashes of cheerfulness. I can never thank you enough, but just know that my heart is bursting with love for every single one of you. :D
Julio - the most talkative of the bunch also a big flirt...slow down there, cowboy!
Maria- super cute and sweet care partner
Florence - nighttime RN funny and was never afraid to wake me up :-|
Ben, my nighttime care partner. He was a big clown..alwasy made me laugh
(btw, look at my awesome blood pressure ;P)
Maria - one of my day time care partners and maybe my favorite nurse!
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