Woke up strapped down to the bed! I tried my hardest to get up. Immediately one of my nurses paged me and was talking to me via intercom. For some reason I'm really feisty today. She was trying to remind me why I'm here and how long i've been here. I was like 'ef you' that's not true! Afterwards I was arguing with my doctor too. He asked me why i was so confused, I was like, "hello I've just had seizure after seizure, and I haven't had a good night's rest for a while". I felt like he was being mean to me. I called all of my family in hopes that they would be able to fill in the bits and pieces that i was missing re: my stay here. I was so confused and couldn't remember where I was. I called my sister and my dad and I had to ask them what was going on. Luis textd me after and told me to read my blog. Haha, for once I'm happy that I put all my shit out there for everybody to see. After reading my blog I completely remembered why i'm here. Dr. Haneef came back and I told him I remembered everythig and he said "you see, why did you feel the need to fight with me". haha!
Right now I'm feeling lonely, sad and vulnerable. I wish somebody familiar was here. I guess I made friends with the nurses because they've all been stopping by to make sure i'm okay and have also been helping me fill in bits and pieces. One of murses (male nurse) was laughing at me. That made me laugh and also made me feel so much better.
Being here is tough. I don't like that this happens. It's scary not to know where you are, and to completely forget important incidents that happened recently.
Please pray that my stay will be successful and that I get to go home soon.
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